October 2009
I wrote this.
Remember
Remember when we used to laugh a lot.
Remember when we would lay in bed all day cuddling.
Remember when we would wake up in the mornings and you would pull me to you as close as possible.
Remember when we were both happy, at the same time.
Remember when we influenced each other’s lives.
Remember when you would go out of your way to come see me, just because.
Remember when you met...
essentially today
so theres this poem i wrote for poetry class last nite that i knew i had to read out loud in class…and guess whos in the class also? the EX. so i wrote this really intense poem and was shaking all day knowing i was going to have to read it at some point. so all of class went by and then he called my name and i read it. basically everyone is saying i have a lot of balls for reading that in...
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interesting
well i had an interesting weekend…i met up with the ex and he gave me back sum stuff i left at his house..it was like a two minute thing..he gave it to me..i said thanks and that was it..it was so strange..i have class with him on tuesday so im sure ill have a stomach ache all day. ive had good parts and bad parts of this weekend. ill feel fine all of a sudden..at random times of the...
there is something going bump in the dryer…
weekends
i have come to the conclusion that weekends are going to be the hardest…since i was always with him..and now he has all of this free time to do whatever he wants with whoever he wants…thats what scares me the most…i did say to him on the phone and i dont want to see him with anyone else and it would be the hardest thing and he said that he wouldnt want to see me with anyone else...
movies
i need to not watch any sory of love story…kuz any thing makes me cry lately and that doesnt help…watching beauty and the beast just made me tear up…i plan on watching movies all weekend and laying in bed trying to get over the shock still. it sucks more than i ever could have imagined. today wasnt as bad as i thought. my dad came up to give me warmer clothes and take me grocery...
not ok....
i had to leave class early today kuz i couldnt handle it..i was shaking and not paying attention..i almost burst into tears four times…i was listening to britney spears of all people…and was listening to this song and it fit perfectly.
“Did I wake you, we’re you sleepin’,were you still in my bed?
Or...”
another day
i just realized that the way my life is now…these posts arent going to be very interesting…actually theyre gonna be quite depressing. oops. well today im going to my figure drawing class at 1 until 3 50 and i dont know how im gonna make it all class without bursting into tears. then after that i have a therapist appointment thank god. but then at 7 i have another class until 10...
today and yesterday
were the two second and third worst days of my life…the one i love the most in this world decided he didnt want to be with me anymore…i have no idea how to handle this..he gave up and didnt want to try anymore…i guess it is good that it ended this way because for the past two months i havent been completly happy…but i still do love him and want to be with him. he has hurt...
