November 2009
let me just tell you
YOU..whoevers reading this…this weekend sucked! i thought it was going to help me in so many ways…but it didnt…there were little tiny things i loved..like seeing people i hadnt in a while and sleeping in the same bed with my cat…thats it..the rest did nothing to get me out of this funk..it probably put me further into it! awesome
im dying inside
i dont think he understand what hes doing to me…but its bringing me to my lowest ive ever been in my life..i know im going to have to go on some sort of medication now because if it…thanks a lot…youve hurt me and made me go crazy…i dont know what to do…at all…
I
need more ugly sweaters
im ready!
my room is clean…im clean…im packed…im ready to go home! im so bored just waiting around for tomorro to come and wait until 2 for my parents to get here! im really excited to go home but at the same time im sure there will be some small things that will stress me out…im not gonna be able to do as much stuff as i though i was going to do…but thats also good kuz i need...
I
AM BEING DRIVEN CRAZY BY A 28 YEAR OLD WHO WONT STOP KNUCKLE PUNCHING ME IN THE ARMS…AND HE KEEPS MAKING FUN OF ME AND ANNOYING ME ON PURPOSE! MY ARMS ARE BRIGHT RED AND SWOLLEN AND HE KEEPS TOUCHING THEM! I CANT BELIEVE I HAVE TO SPEND THE REST OF THE NIGHT WITH THIS LUNATIC/ASSHOLE!
im feeling
really tired but i know i wont fall asleep rite away and i dont really feel like sleeping yet
i just
cut some bangs and they look really cute i must say! its gonna be weird getting use to something hanging on my forehead though
maybe
the cure for my depression is getting off my ass and doing something…idk…i went to classes today and came back and washed dishes…and changed my outfit and actually did stuff…and i fell kind of better. but who knows about tomorro….
i woke up this morning
feeling rather odd..but honestly thats no different than what ive been feeling like the past month it seems…im scared i might have to go on anti depressants…that shall be interesting
1 tag
bold
Bold what you’ve done.
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink 02. Swam with dolphins 03. Climbed a mountain 04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive 05. Been inside the Great Pyramid 06. Held a tarantula 07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone 08. Said “I love you” and meant it 09. Hugged a tree 10. Done a striptease 11. Bungee jumped 12. Visited Paris 13. Watched a lightning storm at sea 14....
so today
i asked him what the ring on the chain was around his neck…and at first he wouldnt tell me…but then i asked him again and he told me it was my old ring he used to wear…i dont know what that means but i asked him why and he said kuz it looks good…im sure that there has to be another reason but i dont think he would actually tell me….like if he misses me or still really...
im feeling
exhausted
anxious
cold
lonely
awake
boring
inspired
thirsty
full
scared
i just want to have a butt and a huge cup of coffee
why why why why
do u have to be so fucking frustrating!!!??? I STILL LOVE YOU!
my weekend
hasnt been as bad or good as i thought…i didnt end up hanging out with my ex kuz he had something else to do…so aparently im not his top priority at all…so i decided to just drink by myself…which i did..and by the time i almost finished off a bottle of arbor mist…i was told there was a suprise party being planned…so i got ready and we sprised my friend for her...
emotional suicide?
so i just texted my ex to see if he wants to drink with me tomorro night kuz my roomate is hanging out with someone else…so i asked him if he wanted to drink together kuz i wud be alone…idk if i can handle this and be just a friend drinking toether or not…hmmm i guess well see what happens
odd
this week has been so freaking weird…so many highs and lows…i partied but it wasnt as much fun as i thought..i had more fun drinking and getting drunk by myself…so many guys have talked to me…but im still iffy about everything in general….i guess ill just stay lost and see where i end up
“If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it;...”
– Unknown (via cyranodebergerac) 